I miss You

Sorry for , blaming you .

2012-02-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

Okay guys , super bored . Super moody today , idk why ._. Whats up with me ? I don't fucking know . Maybe cause of her ? Maybe cause of myself ? I've only have myself to blame . Not meeting was meant to be a joke , but you took it for real . Wow , valentines day and i'm alone ? Cool . Fucking cool . Met Aldo and Phil at bishan , then slacked till 9plus then go home . Super bored today i swearrr . Whole day talk like less than 10 sentences , sit there watch people play game , then go slack at playground . Feeling so fucked up now . I feel like you're ignoring me , i feel super alone . I haven't been feeling like this for so ... fucking long . I miss you , i just do . I know it's normal to be missing you but today's just different . Sometimes i just wanna keep quiet and keep everything to myself , but i end up expressing everything on my blog . This is like a diary , a diary for me to express everything that i'm feeling . when i'm sad , i'll write everything here , and when i'm fucking happy , i'll also come here . This blog is my awesome bestfriend . Every single secret of mine is exposed here . Today is .. so sad . I'm like listening to sad song to make myself sadder . What the fuck right ? Cool shit . My legs feel like breaking from all the standing today . I even walked home . lol , yes , from bishan WALK home . I thought that spending some time alone could make me feel better but no , instead i felt worse . ._. I remember all those ' okaycannnn ' and ' okaycannn me again ?! :b ' quarrels , those were really cute . Baby , i miss you . Why can't you just talk to me ? I'm leaving all my pride down here , take it that i'm on my knees now , i know i made you sad , and i've hurt myself by hurting you , given a chance , i'll apologize like i've never apologize before , I'll do anything to make it right again , I'm so sorry baby .

I'm sorry for , blaming you . And for everything , i couldn't do ..

Hey you .

2012-02-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

Yes baby , you . I bet you're feeling sad as you're reading this post , cause i know how you feel . Don't believe ? Read this

' Dear you , Once you have me , dont stop doing the things it took to get me . Dont stop sending me those cute silly messages that you would always send me , just to simply tell me that all you ever wanted was me . Because even to you it may seem nothing big , but to me , everytime I get those messages , the biggest smile appears over my face & you send butterflies over in my tummy . Dont stop telling me how much I mean to you because if you dont express those feelings for me time to time , I'll get confused & start to think that you've lost interest in me . I'm not asking for a whole lot from you . I'm just asking you to never stop showing your affection towards me . Because not only does that hurt , but I'll get mixed thoughts through my mind & start to have negative thoughts once more . It never ends . It happens all the times . '

True ? I bet this is how you feel now . I just wanna tell you , It's not the feeling that faded , i bet you're thinking that my feelings faded , maybe we've drifted . But the thing is i don't feel that way . Just because we didn't meet for quite a few days doesn't mean I've lost feelings/interest in you . The reason why i'm typing these now is to assure you that my feelings didn't fade . When i'm serious i'll be really serious . I'm those playboy type with lots of girls around me but when i'm serious about a girl I won't care about any other girls . They're all trash to me . I used to say hi to every girl but now , i don't even bother . Only to some girls that i'm very good friends with , if not i won't even bother . Reading this right now , i bet you're still feeling down . Everyone ask me why i love you , I just tell them , no particular reason . I just love . You can't describe the meaning of love . The answer lies within your heart . Everything we do is for a reason . I bet you'll end up laughing if we meet again , thanks to my jokes :b Don't ever feel sad baby , don't have doubts in our relationship . Just believe in one thing , this quote i always had in my heart , ' If i love him/her , he'll love me back ' , the moment you give up , i've nothing else to hold on to . Don't feel sad , don't have doubts . Cause baby you're the only thing i've ever wished for so badly and it came true . I love you , stay happy . I don't want a sad girlf you know (: I never copy any of the so-called ' love quotes ' here hor ! all i ownself think one . Baby i just want you to stay in my life . Just stay , baby . <3 I love you , xoxo . STAY HAPPY . (:

Best Christmas Ever

2012-01-10T22:05:00.003+08:00

Hey people , long time since i've blogged , it's like 10:05 nowww , gonna sleep early again . Wished it was like the holidays when i can sleep till super late , and then go out and have fun , want ton just ton , want slack until late late just slack . Now so boring have to reach home earlyyy ._. Yesterday went to amk hub shopping w mummy ._. brought alot of new year clothes and lotsa other stuffs :b Fun day though , Today go sch , nearly kena sent home by dm cause of hair colour again -.- Every time aim me , i like owe him a million dollars like that siaaaa ._. Wlaooo , than the fathul big butt like to catch my pants uh , zzz bored die me ._. I'm like currently writing this post for fun lorrr , but have something important to post nowww , since baby's going overseas for 3 days ._. can die siaaa , i'm like only texting her and when she goes overseas , i'm #Foreveralone ! :@ SAD . Okay laaa bi this is for you .

Hey baby , 15 more days , it's like long uhs , i know maybe you can't make it on the 25th :b but it's alright we can celebrate it on another day also whattt ! :b tou know i love you right ! :3 Sometimes i'm like suddenly very emo , and i don't know whyy , but it's okay cause everything i do is just for you , * winks * :b don't everything shy shy leh ! :b must be more daring laaaa piggg :b my pig cannot shy shy if not no fun :3 and thanks for the domo file ! ♥ LOVE IT ! Ehhhh , go malaysia 3 days hor ?! leave me alone hor ?! ): Just jokinggggg :b Just go there and have fun horrr , come back remember first one text meeee horr :D

You're the best christmas present i've ever received . Thanks alot , really ♥